No, I really think that you are handsome and a good looking guy. And I know that Scotty’s my friend, but forget about him. I know that it’s tuff, believe me. You have almost always been here for me ever since i could remember and you’ve been working with me through all the bullshit drama and I will always love you for that. You give great advice, especially when it is really truely needed, but have you recently taken your own advice? Have you been telling yourself all the things that you have told me?

I know that with the age difference you always thought me to be annoying when I was younger and you were a young teen; aaand I’m sure you still do. But what are little sisters for anyway right? As far as I can remember, for the most part you and I have always gotten along and I think that’s why the relationship that I have with you out of the whole family means the world to me. When I was in 6th grade for the IStep I had to write an essay about my hero. I don’t remember what I said but I remember starting it out with “My hero is not Batman or Superman he is an everyday guy like you and me. My hero is my big brother Evan” (I dunno if mom ever told you that). You still are my hero and I still look up to you, that’s why you are so important to me and why I was asking you the other day about you going to Uncle E’s. Even though what you did in the beginning was a no-no, I’m proud of you for being clean and that makes me look up to you even more. I’ve been clean and straight for a while now but with everything that you have been through and what not I sometimes like to think of you as my anti-drug. LOL ^.^

All in all you ARE a handsome guy
and I will always be here for you like you have been here for me.

I love you Bubby!!!